Today i feel again...what hope feels like...what being alive feels like...

Is The Word 'Joy' ?

 The walks are suspended due to rains. Gee! All the walk that happens these days are walks inside my apartment while answering the door, doing laundry, and a bit of exercising when I'm Gardening.

Yes, Missies and Misters, I  have a Green Apartment. Ever heard of that one? Living in the concrete jungle wasn't getting me anywhere and I wasn't going anywhere either, so I decided to allow me to dish out my mini pruners and trowel which were anyway rusting and begin...

 

All those blessed souls who have begun so many things  so many  times...would know what am I talking about. Begun and gave up, begun and gave up, to never give up again...

 

Never Say, Never Again!

 

I'm working on the skills of taking care of my plants, making home potting mixes, knowing about manures, fungicides, not to mention making my own home cultivated manure. Doing all this makes me really really happy. My father would be smiling from heaven up above, seeing me finally, taking the dirty soil job in my own hands, to acquire a Green thumb!

 

No easy task this, as I already know! God alone knows, how many plants I have killed, when I have taken things in my own hands! But not anymore...

 

Well, as I gather, which in theory I knew, Gardening requires a lot of shuffling of pots and bending...basically, movements... which is proportionally good for fitness. Physically and mentally.

 

Not to mention, how healthy and stoically sombre happy you become, breathing all that fresh air...

 

Is the word 'Joy' I'm looking for??

 

Just a week back, I made a Terrarium, my very own!

 

Learnt the 'how to' on the Internet.

 

This gives me a complete boost of energy and confidence, when I take care to honour my interests and upgrade my skills...the whole digest of my DOSE.

 

DOSE, short for the four happy hormones one must take care to nurture and produce oneself.

 

 Dopamine, Oxytocin, Serotonin, Endorphin. 

 Amor Sui, ubi eras?

 Hiding right under my nose, quite literally!

 

 

AFTERGLOW

                                                                

Afterglow 

I'd like the memory of me 

To be a happy one

I'd like to leave an afterglow 

Of smiles when life is done 

I’d like to leave an echo 

Whispering softly down the ways 

Of happy times and laughing times 

And bright and sunny days 

I'd like the tears of those who grieve, 

To dry before the sun 

Of happy memories that I leave 

When life is done

- Helen Lowrie Marshall

I walk in Faith!

 

It is the question of never giving up. Never giving up on anything. As you walk, the path will appear before you, is an adage I completely live by. The one thing I am glad for, I didn't  'Give up.' Living is a trying tall task and we are all in this. I am a person full of doubts...and as it turns out we are all...there is the mantra, 'Where you falter ,there your treasure lies.'

 Doubt gives birth to Faith.

Faith even when you can't see. Faith even when the road is dark. Faith even when there's no love...

That He will deliver if you ask! He will deliver if you don't give up on him.

Walking with the things I see!

As resolved, today I planned to complete 4 km in the walking just bang opposite my Society.

4 km is 5632 steps by an average walk at the speed of 5kph.

I did it!

I also took some pictures of a wall which caught my eye, as I was walking.

the organic patterns that the moss created on the rundown wall coupled with the green paint rising from below absolutely merged natural with man made.

this made me stop and look for more patterns.

And there they were, wherever I looked!

It was the high point of my day.

I started my day with 3 Bananas as they promise to bring energy instantly.  I had pomegranate and oranges later. 

I also prepared for myself a bowl of tomato spinach soup which has by now become a sort of a staple. If not everyday, I manage it 4 out of 7 days.

Recipe for Spinach Tomato Soup

Ingredients:

1/3 of a bunch of spinach

2 tomatoes

1/2 tsp cumin seeds

1tbsp of ghee

few cloves of Garlic

a pinch of Turmeric powder

How do you do it?

You need to melt ghee in a pressure cooker.

 Let the cumin splutter on it after they heat up a bit.

Throw in the cloves, tomatoes and the spinach.

 Add salt and turmeric powder. 

Mix them well. 

Add water and close the lid.

As it whistles for 3-4 times, turn off heat.

Mash into pulp, strain and Voila! 

Enjoy the soup.

You can add Lemon for a top up taste.

Catharsis

New month, new beginnings!

          March 1,2021.Monday 

 

Notes to myself 

'If the road ahead is not so easy, you don't have to change a thing, I Love You just the way you are!'

    These words echo in my head as I walk, reminding me of the sentiments, that my husband conveyed through this song in those days in the 90s.

 

This song was very endearingly taped in a cassette and given to me with Love by him when we were 17,just stepping into Senior High School.

 

I know deep down, he's with me in my highs and my lows.

 

Even more so, as I play this song. 

 As I wear my new pair of Sketchers and set out,

Glenn Medeiros croons on in my head and my pace quickens, my spirits soar and I become more resolute.

.

All our life we are fighting this or that. Is mind ever at rest? I figured that our mind is at rest when we walk. Gee!

One can begin by being true to oneself.

 

So, this is going to be a cathartic exercise. Walking and blogging my walk stories. Cathartic, because it helps me navigate my thoughts, in that way, it is meditative. Very meditative. As it always has been.

 

Walking and writing is my superpower. 

 

They help me be joyful.

 

They help me plan my day. They clear the fog in my head and think clear, reason enough to keep going. 

It sustains. It helps me build myself up. It helps me be in touch with my true self. It helps me sift, sort, analyse, find solutions in my daily life. Conscious and subconscious.

              Walking and Writing helps me see!